Starting a new chapter?

I've been wondering what should I do these days with my topic. Yeah, I've been researching about "going home" but honestly I don't know what to do with it. Thankfully today I was at the studio and some of my classmates helped me bounce off ideas and give me a very needed push.

I was sharing my problems that I don't know where to go with my topic and that it may be even a little bit dull. I explained to them what grabbed me in this was the explanation of the word hiraeth and how it really spoke to me. Which in turn redirected my research to ghosts and the afterlife more or less.

Mentioning ghosts most of them give me some advice based on their own personal idea connected to ghosts. Someone then mentioned how she thinks that sometimes when she goes to sleep her ghost goes to another multiverse and that's what she dreams of. This, in turn, prompted me to remember a common saying: "Sleep is the twin brother of Death"

Somehow it was all I needed to unlock a dam of inspiration. Or more specifically to remember this dream I had a long time ago:

• Basically, in my dream, there was this very old grandma that was living in a house in the middle of nowhere. Then she hears a knock on her door and when she opens it, it turns out it's her grandchild from a long time ago. She greets him and he stays overnight. The next day the grandchild has to leave and the Grandma decides that she'll go with him seeing as maybe it's time for her to explore a bit too. Then throughout their journey, they witness the war that is raging in the world right now. The grandma always chats with her grandchild in a one-sided conversation but she doesn't mind. The turning point though is that one time the grandma witnesses a very young person dying on the battlefield so she goes to help him. Just as she's reaching for the person to help she then realizes that she's actually only a ghost. Turning to her companion the grandma sees that he is in fact Death and not her grandchild that has been dead for almost 10 years. She asks why he hasn't said anything to her about being dead and Death says that the point is for the dead to fulfill their wishes and realize it by themselves that they are already deceased. Death then asks if the grandma wants to continue to the afterlife but she refuses with the words: "Even Death can feel lonely. I will keep you company for now."

This dream was what pushed me to research more about death and oblivion in particular. People often talk about death and the afterlife but oblivion was not something I have come across often (if we exclude the movie Oblivion, which was terrible). I was looking forward to it

Oblivion turned to nothingness:

Death → Oblivion vs Afterlife

Oblivion (nothingness):

"Accustom yourself to believing that death is nothing to us, for good and evil imply the capacity for sensation, and death is the privation of all sentience; therefore, a correct understanding that death is nothing to us makes the mortality of life enjoyable, not by adding to life a limitless time, but by taking away the yearning after immortality.

• The idea of the topic of "Oblivion" is to show people that they should appreciate their life as long as they have it. Yes, living is hard but it's what makes us us. Even after we die, oblivion or afterlife it's the fact that we have left a "shadow" of ourselves in this world is what it counts. We count. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter who you are because we are all heading in the same direction.

The Art of Nothingness: Why Balance Matters - Pick the Brain | Motivation and Self Improvement

Everything nowadays is very fast paces and sometimes we forget to just be